Thankful for His Blessings
On September 18th, 2015 I was honored at the 100 Women of Color Inaugural Gala held at the Bushnell Theater in Hartford, CT. I don't even know where to begin because God has been showing me how he rewards his faithful disciples. I've battled with endometriosis since I was 11 years old. I turned 40 this past February (Yayyy Me — 40/40 Club). During this 28+ years of agony, I couldn't see where God was taking me. I rebelled many days and nights and I felt as if my prayers were not being answered. I often wondered if I was being punished for something.
I recall one of the darkest days of my life. I got on my knees and prayed like never before. I had just had surgery ( I struggled to get up and down off of that hospital floor). But I knew I needed to do something different in that moment. My quality of life was dependant on it. I prayed God would give me some insight as to why I was enduring such turmoil and pain in my life in regards to my health. I knew I was to serve a purpose according to his will, but I didn't know exactly what it was.
I kept praying until one day it came to me after sharing my journey in an uncut/unedited way with a close friend. I felt free. Then Boom -- there it was! I became the voice and advocate for women suffering in silence with this horrific disease called Endometriosis. The Sister Girl Foundation was born. As I received my award for my contribution to my community and beyond, I reflected on all the painful days and nights. The times I wanted to throw in the towel. The many women and families I've helped along the way.
The proud look on my family's face flashed before my eyes. I heard all the screams from all of my family and friends fill the Bushnell Theater as my name was called. There were chills that came across my arms as I was so full of emotions. Once I saw my loved ones all I could say was, “Thank You God for carrying me this far. Yes Lord, I am deserving of Abundance.” In addition to my beautiful award, I received proclamations in 3 different locations stating that September 18th, 2015 is "Shantana Hazel Day!" Look at my GOD.
I now know what my purpose in Life is and I am walking in it gracefully, unapologetically, unashamed and with my head held high.
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